‘Seven Minutes in Heaved’
‘ I never ….’
You ever played those games?
Well guess what?
Oh it stings.
It makes you feel like you don’t belong.
I listen to my best friend tell me how she kissed someone on a dare and all I can think of is how I should be reacting.
Would I regret it later?
Would I even ever get to?
Would my parents ever even let me go out to a late night party in my entire life?
The thoughts never stop attacking you.
Sleepless nights are the result of knowing what you can never have.
I don’t admire the lifestyle.
It is undoubtedly not the kind of life I want.
But just once…
Just once I want to be in that place.
Know what it feels like to be drunk.
All my 14 year old friends know already.
So why do I have to wait for 18?
Eighteen. It’s so promising isn’t it?
Oh I’ll have all the freedom when I’m 18.
What if I don’t?
What if I end up being like those control freaks who know exactly what they want in life?
What if I end up majoring in some kind of serious subject and never have the time to enjoy life?
What if I never get to live these moments?
Will I be the girl who has all the money, but zero happiness?
Dance, now that would be what I really want to do.
But what am I going to do instead? Business.
To make my dad proud.
And I don’t regret it.
I just….don’t know.
Signing off to Yet Another…
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