I’ll never forget tonight.
It’s Chinese New Year.
It’s Valentine’s day<3
It’s snowing
It’s bee-u-tiful…..fireworks everywhere!

But I’m sad.

It’s valentine’s day….why do I even care?

I wish I could call someone now….but there is no one to call.

I did call one person…our conversation lasted about 30 seconds
before he said he had to go.

My best friend hasn’t come online for days and I don’t know what on earth is going on outside the 4 walls of my house.

I like no one, that’s what I tell myself anyway.
Because honestly, I like the hottest guy in my school…so what the hell is the point?

It’s like liking Taylor friggin Lautner!

Dad came home today….
he bought me and my brother all the wrong things.

I asked for a case for my laptop…but he got the wrong kind.

He got my brother PSP speakers but for the wrong version.

I’d feel sad about that if I could get over his sad face.

He spent about 20,000 rupees on all this stuff.

I just wanna hug him and tell him that it doesn’t matter but for some reason…I don’t.

Instead I act like he got everything exactly right and obviously I’m not a very good actor.

If only I was a good daughter to my amazing father.

Nothing feels right.

I feel like changing everything!

I’ll never be….them.

The fireworks are starting to stop.

I can’t see the snow anymore cause my window’s all fogged up.

I feel lost.

What can I say?

I want to feel mesmerized. But I don’t.

I just want to talk to someone.

):

I wish he knew.

Signing off to Just Another…
Shanghai Night