I confronted her, my best friend.

It ended with her telling me I suck as a friend.

She said I should stop complaining.

I said I tot telling her stuff would make it better.

She said, guess not.

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So I guess that wasn’t like it was supposed to be.

I’m kinda breaking right now.

I mess up every time.

I’m a very pessimistic person who is not a lot of fun.

I obsess over all the wrong things.

And the one person,
the one person who I thought would make it all okay just told me I am a horrible friend.

So I guess I’m not a very lovable person huh?

I try to look at all the good stuff, I really do.

But all the good stuff, its just so out of reach.

I don’t want any of that stuff.

I just want a BFF!
That’s all.

You know what? I can be optimistic.

For instance, I have a home, and parents, and all the organs that work perfectly and…

Oh god I sound pathetic!

The fireworks won’t stop.
I don’t feel like fireworks tonight!

You know what?
I’m going to stop writing about myself.

I’m starting a new post.