Alone.

I wonder how it would be like to be alone.

How would it feel like to sit alone every lunch?

Maybe it would even feel nice.

How am I going to feel bad about not sitting with who I want to sit if I choose not to sit with that person?

And that way I don’t have to be completely ignored at the table because there’s no one else to ignore me.

And if anyone gives me the sympathy look, or the ‘what a freak’ look, I’ll probably just give them the mean look back.

Sounds nice.

If I make people hate me, how can I feel sad about it since I did it intentionally right???

Maybe I’ll try it one of these days.

I won’t even feel bad when they don’t invite me to stuff that way!

And I won’t have to live under any sort of expectations.

And best of all, I won’t have my best friend ‘appear offline’ to avoid me like she’s doing right now.

What’s even the point os this thing?

I turning into someone i’m not.

I’m nice, mostly.

You know what? I’ll just sleep.

Or go IM someone about how miserable I am.

Signing off to Just Another…
Shanghai Night